...changing...

yupyup, i am forever changing my template. i just love changing them. a sense of satisfaction after loading the template to my blog though i did not design them. the templates make me love my blog more. =D i think i mentioned it before that i love white backgrounds templates. it just brightens up my day to see refreshing colours, like white. it will be better if it's made up of happy colours too!

as i was watching desperate housewives on 5 last night, the lee hwa jewellery commerical kept showing either at the start or the end of the almost 10 minutes commerical break. it just brought me back to when i first switched on the TV after my YEP trip. i roughly remembered the time was around 1230am. i just took a shower and could not resist the temptation to press the buttons on the remote control after being cut off from the technology world for almost 2 weeks. =) the first image on the screen was... YES! lee hwa jewellery commerical. it was exactly the same one which i saw last monday. haha... i sound like a complete idiot.

"leave them outside"

...holidays...

today is the start of the holidays and i have to start it all with a bad note. i am sick. down with sorethroat and flu. might be due to the chocolates i ate for the past few days. or maybe it is because of the durians i ate a few days back. or maybe the MAC i had for dinner last night made me sick.

i cannot find a template that i like. ii took a looooong time and found this one. =)

"take good care of my health and not make them worry"

...star wars...

well, i am not a star wars freak but i still went to watch the movie yesterday. heard from eileen and jess that it is a depressing movie and it will make one sad. hmmm...

my favourite character is the grand master yoda. i know he is short, green, ugly, old,... but he is soooo agile when he fought with the lord sith. he jumped from one corner to another effortlessly. yeah!!! he rocks.

"need to learn how to let things go or else you will submit yourself to the dark side"

how true is it? we all have burdens. we all want our loved ones to be healthy. the closer we are, the more we do not want to lose it. i cannot explain that. it is just in us. some people show that character very strongly in front of the people to the extent that it may cause power struggle. argH!! i hate internal conflicts. how terrifying it is to know that we have to backstab one another to get what we aim for. i totally look down on these people because they are self-centred. can they spare a thought for those around them? i feel that it is exactly the situation that anakin was in. all he wanted was to protect his beloved princess from death that caused him to submit to the dark forces. however, he did not weigh the consequences of his actions when he knelt, bowed and greeted the lord sith, " my master". rmb he was the chosen one? the hope of the millions of people in the galaxy on him to bring balance to the galaxy was destroyed. he had broken the hearts of his princess and his master. arghhh... i just feel like giving him 2 tight slaps to wake him up when he did not kill the lord sith.

the movie was dragging at some parts. =(but if you are interested, go watch it.

i woke up late again.thursday is a bad day because i have waken up late for 2 consecutive weeks already. i took a cab to sch today and when i entered the cab and told the driver where i was going, his immediate reaction was " ohh... the one at coporation road?" i was like " huh?" NO! the one at bukit timah. he had mistaken my sch uniform for another secondary sch uniform. irritating.

a short day became a long day today.i was supposed to be dismissed from sch at 120pm but thanks to the phys and math makeup and prinicpal dialogue session, i could only leave the school around 430pm. on my way home, my head felt heavy. something seemed to be pressing against my brain. unbearable. luckily, the bus came shortly and i slept the whole journey and thankfully, i did not miss my bus stop. phew!

going to catch AMIresults show later. i know who won the title. YEAH!!! but i still want to watch it. haha... i have chem tutorial to do. argh!!! how depressing. june hols are coming. yeah! i am supposed to cheer right? but, it is the mugging period for me. how sad. work hard everyone. push on ya?

"late but it's better than never"

...a test...

i took a personality test again.

Your Birthdate: January 31

Your birthday suggests that you are a good organizer and manager, an energetic and dependable worker; attributes often showing success in the business world. Serious and sincere, you have the patience and determination necessary to accomplish a great deal. Your approach can be original, but often rigid and stubborn. Sensitivity may be present, but feeling are likely to be repressed. You are good with detail and insist on accuracy, but at times scatter energies. You're a practical thinker, but not without imagination. You love travel and don't like to live alone. You should probably marry early, for responsibility is necessary for your stability.

...celebration...

had a talk with them today. hope that things will finally work out. we will not be there for them everytime. we cannot teach and direct them always. it's time for them to grow up, experience it and lead well. =D

went to meet kns at 6pm to celebrate pee's and eve's belated 18th birthday. haha... nv ever meet at dohby ghaut mrt control station cos it is extremely confusing. it took me great effort to find the stupid mrt control station at the north east line part. i had to walk up and down, turn left and right. argH! irritating. and bobo was late!!!! hahaha...

we went to eat. dear all, in order not to spoil your happy mood, do not and i mean dont even attempt to dine in at that outlet. i should not mention where it is and what it is. the service SUCKS. when we went in, the table was totally uncleared. we could see bits and pieces of the food left behind by the previous customers. the seats were oily or wet. they only started to wiped the table clean after we approached them. they only served us our iced water after we requested for them. they did not set the table for us. when we requested for the utensils, they did not give us sufficient and they just placed the stack of plates, forks, knives at one corner of the table. they still DID not set the table for us. that was just plainly providing us with the utensils only. well, thanks for the effort. we could have gone into the kitchen and gotten the utensils by ourselves if that was the service we wanted. it totally destroyed our mood though some of us were starving. pissed off. we had the intention to leave the restaurant immediately but we did not. we gave our feedback to the manager and guess what, we did not pay for the service charge. well, that was reasonable. in fact, we were serving ourselves.

we started taking pictures of one another with our camera phones. and we took neoprints. haha... so pretty. =D after which, pui, eve and pee went home. left me, ally, fang, woon and bobo. we walked from PS to heeren. we finally settled down at the NYDC outside heeren. the service there was soooo much better than the previous one. =D and the waiter who served us was quite handsome looking. haha... we continued to take stupid pictures with our phones again. how wonderful the bluetooth technology is. we started sending pictures through bluetooth here and there and searched for names whom we did not know of, like "sadspider", "daniel". our dearest woon had to read out the names that we did not know very loudly. omg...

we have made an agreement. the kns will meet our every month. we are planning to meet during the 2nd week of june. so people, pls study hard and leave a day off from your mugging and meet out okay? yeah!! we rock!

"best to have friends around"

...long weekend...

yeah! it's the long weekend again! =D but the tutors are not going to give us an easy time. haizz... how depressing. tutors are pulling each other's hair to fight for the few more seconds with the class in order to finish the syllabus. i do not have much complain cos i am used to the bullet train speed since RV. =) the mid year holidays are coming. it is the mugging period cos my mid-year is in july. more depressing. it's OKAY. i am going to have fun tmr. going to celebrate eve's and pee's bday tmr at the fish and co glasshouse. woah... i love fish and co. hahaz...

maybe i am too picky. maybe i love to compare them with the others. i hate to be on the losing side. i hate people who criticize them. it pains my heart when i see no improvement is done since the last time i went back. it saddens me to see it deteriorates. i feel helpless. there is limited things that i can do to help them. it discourages me to put in more effort when they themselves are not motivated to improve. the situation worsens when we cannot see eye to eye. it's not a one man show. it requires team effort. tomorrow will be the day to thrash things out with one another. i hope it works.

ah-wang had ended. =( no more good drama for me to watch. the ending was stupid. =(

"i will be happy if you are happy"

...over...

college day is over

earned ourselves a full day holiday last monday

went to watch the bball semifinals with goi

was impressed by cheryl poon

her 3 pointer shoots were awesome

number 7 became my idol

sports day today

screamed, cheered, shouted

for jess, jiahui, vince and junrong

for ignis

they all did a great job =D

my throat is hurting =(

a wave of GP work came

i cannot handle it

it took away my beauty sleep

so i stoned, dazed, stared in space

my head feels heavy

something is pressing hard on it

no luck for both tests

i just make it =(

i know that i am "different"

cos i am under their watchful eyes

i have no choice but to push on

and not let myself down

i need to rest

to be a better me

...busy...

i have been v busy for the past few days cos of college day rehearsals. they started at 6pm and i only got to leave the school around 9pm. i had my dinner around 10pm for the last 2 nights. how sad. the most depressing thing was most of the food stalls near my house were closed by then. how was i supposed to fill my stomach????

the rehearsals had seriously driven me crazy today. i had no choice but to stay up late at night to complete my last-minute work for 2 consecutive nights. i slept at 2am on wednesday night. and i had to force my eyelids to open last night to study for today's math test. in the end, i lost the battle and felt asleep unknowingly on my study table top for 5 minutes before i woke up in shock. i just dumped the math booklet into my bag and went to sleep.

today was terrible. i forgot my phys notes. i screwed up my math lecture test. others shaded the region at the lower half of the circle and i had to choose to be different during a test. -_- i dropped a pair of chopsticks when i was getting ready to sit down and have my lunch. i left my wallet on the canteen table unattended until chingting reminded me. what a lousy day. =( anyway, it's friday the 13th.

i am glad that all my sufferings will be put to an end tomorrow. oh yeah!!!

people always have misconceptions about PA. if you happen not to know what does PA mean, it stands for PUBLIC ADDRESS. jess could not understand why i complained i was tired after the rehearsals when all i did was to adjust the mic stands, push some faders and press some buttons. i think only those who are doing duty at the backstage were both physically and mentally tired. as for those at the control, it is more of mentally tired. we need to be alert throughout the whole event regardless the duration of the event. we need to be able to solve all technical problems immediately if there happens to be one during the event. we need to ensure that we make NO technical mistakes, especially on the actual day so that the event will run smoothly. that's why we tends to be mentally tired instead of physically tired. like what we believe in, we are the unsung heros. hahaz...

all my favourite TV programmes are ending soon. AMI is down to the final 3. i am soooo happy that carrie is still in the competition. all the way, girl!!! amazing race had ended. i felt it was a pity that rob and amber didnt win the 1 million dollars because it was a stupid mistake by a local, who gave them the wrong directions, cost them to lose the prize. what a waste! apprentice is down to the final 2. i am glad that person won the title. that person truly deserves it. =D i am a supporter of that person. besides, the 7pm channel 8 HK drama series is ending soon. it is the countdown to the final 5 episodes on monday. ah-wang is sooo funny and sweet and caring. so i am left with the desperate housewives. =D

mr tan (the chem tutor) had left. i am still guilty over the matter. the class asked for his permission to excuse ourselves from his double chem tutorial to support the table tennis team at the finals. he agreed to it but i could sense his frustration and helpless in his voice when he gave us the 'go' signal. i could not resist the temptation of the table tennis finals and went with jess, jiahui, beth and eileen. i really appreciated his understanding in this matter. he puts in his heart and soul to teach us. =) thanks! and the encouragement he had given us too. rmb the polar express people?

a good night rest everyone. =) and it's eve's 18th birthday tmr and pee's 18th bday the day after. hahaz... so exciting. i love birthdays, esp the one on 31 jan 1987. =D

"you wouldn't know unless you try"

...kingdom of heaven...

today was generally a happy day. it started off with everyone in hope of having a full day due to the great achievements the performing groups had obtained at the SFY central judging. like what she said, it was an anticipatited announcement. there were speculations that we would be having at least a half day off today. however, it is best to hear the truth for yourself right? true enough, we had a half day off, or rather a three-quarter day off. =)

i watched kingdom of heaven with zh today. initially, i wanted to catch the show because there is my favourite eye-candy acting in the movie as the lead actor. hahaz... this time round, he is in the positive light, unlike the one in troy. what a disappointment! after reading some reviews about the movie, the storyline interested me as well. =) it's a historical event, about having different religions co-exsit together. what's most important is it is a HISTORICAL event. anything about history makes me go crazy. =D

besides drooling over olando bloom, the war made my heart ache. the war started was mainly due to greed, power and frame. can you imagine how many innocent lives had to be lost to satisify one's hunger? the bloodshed, the broken families,... can all these be replaced with power and wealth? so what if you are the master of all masters but you do not find happiness in what you are doing? what's the point of climbing the ladder of power then? to me, staying happy is the most important task i want to complete everyday. =D

not fight for the bricks, the walls. fight for those who live within the walls. i just happened to love this phrase in Balian's war speeches.

you can control the man, but you cannot control the soul. see, it boils down to mental strength again. (self-psycho remember?)

"be brave when you face fear"

...psychological strong...

our minds are a powerful weapon to psycho ourselves to do tasks, especially those that we detest.

had GP lesson today. my group ended up talking to my GP tutor about why we should psycho ourselves everyday in order to complete tasks which seem impossible. it's a marathon. i admit i will not have the strength and stamina to complete the race no matter how well-prepared i am. the hurdles that i have to cross slows the race. and if unfortunately, i happen to trip and fall, i need time to heal and nurse my physical injury. what's worst is i need to overcome the emtional barrier as it will be a blow to my self-confidence when i failed the first time. i need to learn how to recover from my fall. how can all these be done? a mentally strong mind is required. this is when the self-psycho part comes in.

i admire my gp tutor. she lives in malaysia and as to take the trouble to cross the causeway everyday to teach us. imagine how early she has to wake up everyday, the traffic she has to be struck in. she also has to juggle her family with her work as well. hectic lifestyle ya? she told us she managed to pull through because of self-psycho. everyday, she tells herself that she can do it. it really motivates her to carry on till today. =) maybe i can try doing so everyday from tomorrow onwards. talk to myself into doing tasks i hate.

"impossible is nothing"

... how accurate...

i was reading blogs when i came across this personality test web. yeah! i love taking personality tests. though the results are not totally reliable, it's great to know more about myself. so... here are the result of the test i have taken.

big 5 personality test

Big Five Test Results

Extroversion (72%) high which suggests you are overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense too often of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity. Friendliness (59%) moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly kind natured, trusting, and helpful at the expense of your own individual development (martyr complex). Orderliness (77%) high which suggests you are overly organized, neat, structured and restrained at the expense too often of flexibility, variety, spontaneity, and fun. Emotional Stability (64%) moderately high which suggests you are relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic. Openmindedness (50%) medium which suggests you are moderately intellectual, curious, and imaginative.

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personality tests by similarminds.com

"make the impossible happen"

...conclusion...

life is sad

it's the hard truth

although it's pessimistic

what matters is we have the optimistic mind

it's the way we handle tasks counts

right?

...HOT...

hot Hot HOT HOT.. the weather is pissing me off. why on earth did i decide to have long hair about one and a hlaf year ago? i must be out of my mind!!!! my hair is irritating me. i do not want to tie my hair up that often cos it will damage my hair. but if i dont, i will be breathing out steam. should i just snap my hair short and i mean real short until i cannot tie my hair up anymore? i am thinking of doing so after my A. anyway, what's most important is i am going to the hair salon either during this weekend or next weekend. =) i cannot wait.

results Results RESULTS RESULTS. everyone talks about efficiency and productivity. if you fail to perform up to expectations, you will be eliminated. how cruel can this world get? sometimes when we fail, it is not because we do not try enough. we may have tried our best but due to the lack of luck and probably, we have used the wrong method to do things, we fail. is it fair to judge people based on results? i remembered that there is this saying that goes, "it is not the end product that matters. it is the process." bullshit. i dont see many situations proving that this saying is true. i agree that setting targets are good. it may motivate us to excel and improve but at least we should set realistic ones right? what's the point of spending a portion of your time, planning targets that are unreachable? "when you aim for the moon, even if you fail, you will still land on the star " ARGH!!!!! bullshit again. if you cannot reach the moon, you will be screwed by the high authories. "but i improved". wake up!!!! that is not sufficient. "i want to see a greater improvement" how greedy man can get? just face the reality.

there's AMI tomorrow. yeah!!!!! i cannot believe that anwar is out. he is one of my favourites for this season. i dont agree that his vocals and performance are worse than scott's. i want scott to get out of the competition this week. he is an eye-sore.

...lazy...

i am in a lazy mood this week. i just want to sleep, lag and eat all day long. where has my drive gone to?

listened to a total of 102 SC elects' speeches yesterday. i find the second part very draggy. time was crawling. argh!!!! nothing unusual, like a elect fell off the stage or a elect forgot his/her speech, happened yesterday. i only rememebered there were alot of singing which many of us felt that the elects' speech day was becoming into a audition for Singapore Idol. i was impressed with this guy but not by his speech but his magic trick. haha... i dont understand how they work but what is most important is they always make me to go "woah". i always love magical stuff that cannot be explain. so cool... besides that, my fellow junior's speech left a deep impression on me. i dont find any fault with the words that she used. those words were to symbolize everyone has the potential to be a leader. why were some of the audience picking on her? it just showed how narrow-minded they were. i understand that when you are really into something, you will tend to be on defensive mood when others are commenting on your work. you wll want to hear praises and not criticism. you may get irrational and emotional when things dont go your way. if so, i am sorry to say that you will fail to be a leader cos a leader should be rational and not let his/her emtions get into his/her way. so please reflect!

i do NOT want the extra 8 seconds. NOOOOOOooooo.... i was disappointed with my performance today. what was going on in my little pea brain? how could i allow such a tragic to happen on me? i was defeated by a mild 8 seconds. if not, my records will be perfect. i was given a tight slap on my face when she read my timing. my heart sank to the first floor, as quoted from mr chng.

eileen said today is the BIG word day but to me it is more of a thinking day. 2 things happened today, which showcaseed my performance for the past few months, made me reflected. when was the last time i felt a sense of satisfication in my work? even i could not recall. i have been living a day by a day without any aim. others have found their aim in life and adapted successfully to changes, while i am still struggling behind, refusing to move. i have let down many people and i hate to see the disappointment in their eyes. i have been telling myself many a time not to let history repeat itself but i am getting nowhere. what's the point with all these encouragement but with no concrete plans to follow? i ran to my bookshelf and dug out the "who moved my cheese?" book. i read it and felt much better, a release of negative feelings. i know what i should do now but unsure if it will work. okay. stop it!!! stop thinking of fear. fear slows down the process and withdraws people from trying. just go and give it my best shoot. i just hope the others will not frightened by fear too. =D

"what would you do if you arent afraid"

...feelings...

a smile across my face after i finished it. sense of accomplishment and my time well-spent. i am proud of myself. how many times can you witness karen, the lazy bum, glued her eyes to a small, squarish, thick stack of papers? in history, twice only. once was when i was reading the harry potter series and now, the dan brown series. the more i read, i the more i realised his stories are more or less about the same. however, i am captivated by the thrills and smart twists in the stories. =) like how things started to fall in place when the story is ending, how he cleverly made unexpected situations possible and everything. cool....

after reading digital fortress, it came upon me how easily a human mind can be corrupted unknowingly. we always assume that no matter what we do, we always do it in the best interest of everyone, probably paying more attention on the well-beings of our loved ones. however, we fail to weigh the consequences of our actions. sometimes, people turn to the evil side just to achieve a particular motive which they believe to be for the good of mankind. they felt the ends justify the means, so why not? bullshit! i do not believe there is only a solution to a problem. be flexible!!!! if there exists only a soultion to a problem, why are there so many alternatives methods that we can use to solve simple math problems? model drawing, diagrams... sometimes, we just need to think out of the box, jump out of our comfort zone, observe and listen. one day, we will find the solution.

is it possible for one to forget the past and move on with life? if the past is that easy to forget, why does memories exist? humans are weird. the more you want to get rid of something, the harder it is for you to do so. why? sometimes, i really wish there is this device that can erase all the bad, painful, sad, horrible memories away from my brain. that will leave more space for happy memories isnt? i just want to keep going forward. is that too much of a request?

why am i writing in such a groomy mood? i read in one of my friends' blog, laughter is the best medicine on earth. =) i agree!!!! someone does not believe that a person like me actually fall sick. HA. i am just a plain jane afterall. nothing fantastic. nothing amazing. just the ordinary me.

"laugh more. it helps."

...not again...

i was burnt out during last weekend. had PA orientation 2 on sat. i walked a total of around 6 to 7 km in one and a half hour just to walk from pit no. 19 to pit no. 68. argh!!!! my legs were aching. if we knew that the pits are soooooo deep into the park, we would not alight later. i did not stay for long and went to meet my 4J clique.

i was freaking late. i felt very bad that they all waited for me before eating. i was so touched. the worst part was i had to let the 2 birthday girls wait for me. omg... what logic is this?? i am so very sorry guys. i miss them all soooo much. sometimes, i really hope i can return to 16 years old. though sec4 was a mad rush for me, felt stressed up by both myself and the school, it was one of my best moments in life. ganging up together to go against kan, bad mouthing that stupid pe teacher who i forgot his name, the after-school-get-togethers and many many many more. i really appreciate the effort by everyone to remain in contact with one another. =) you girls rock! in the end, i reached home at 1230am. hahaz... so late...

played bball today for PE and i injured myleft middle finger. argh!!!! how irritating. i remembered i injuried my right middle finger somewhere in april last year too. april is my acciendent prone month. i thought the swell will go away after some rubbing. somehow the more i rub, the fatter the finger gets. argh!!!! it's so fat and red. my dad rubbed this chinese medicated oil for me and i could not stop shouting for help. it's horrible. not, my middle finger is bandaged like a ba zha. hahaz... hope it will be fine tomorrow.

"don't think too deep into things"

...rainy days...

i find rainy days frustrating. human behaviour is very unpredictable. i remember at the beginning of this year, the weather was extremely humid. everyone was complaining and praying for a single drop of rain. but now, it is the opposite. on my way out of school, i was caught in this downpour with jess. the walkway was completely USELESS! they might as well just destroy it. it does not shelter students from the rain. what a failure!!!! and the drainage system sucks totally. instead of getting wet shoes due to the rain, it was the flooding at the walkway that did the job.

i thought that was enough but heaven was not on my side today. my bus came pretty fast and i thought, "great! i can go home and take a nap,". but, the damn bus had to be caught in this stupid traffic jam at sixth ave. argh!!!!! it was a long stretch of vehicles and i could not figure the main cause of the jam from where i was then. maybe a car broke down or even worse, an accident. i started to picture the bloody imagines. i guessed i was too tired that i fell asleep unknowingly on the bus. hahaz...

the next moment when i woke up, i saw this traffic police ran all the way to the T-junction. i found him quite silly. i thought most of the traffic policemen travel on motorbikes. he could have drove it and wriggled his way through the traffic. hahaz... i should be nice. =)

finally when the bus managed to climb its way up the slope to the T-junction, i found out it was due to the fallen branches from the trees along the roads that caused the jam. ARGH!!!! negative example of mother nature. please do not follow. oops... what am i talking about???

this downpour lasted for a very long time. it only ended at most 2 hours ago. what a gloomy wednesday.

talking about blues, i seriously do NOT suffer from monday blues. it's not that i like school but my blues always happen in the mid-week. sickening... wednesday is neither here nor there. i am not very near nor very far from the weekend. argh!!! i hate this feeling of hanging in the mid-air. after crossing the wednesday mark, the rest of the week will be better days. let's hope the jap drama VCDs can cheer me up for the remainging days in this week. hahaz... =)

"you are a failure if you refuse to try"

...passion out...

it's april's fool day today but it's not happy at all.

i just read a blog. i am feeling quite sad. cannot help but to ask myself why did things turn up to be in this state? they always expects other people to do much better than them but it seems like the other people are disappointing them again and again. they know they have some faults but they do not bother to change or rather some people in the group do not see it as a flaw at all. they just hope the other people do not repeat the same mistakes ideally. who shall accept the blame for this failure?

the environment kills passion. how true can it get? it's good to be passionate about something because it drives you on to work hard, try hard and finally succeed. however, this passion will die when you never fail to meet with obstacles along the way. it's irritating and disturbing because these limitations make you want to quit. you just refuse to try anymore because somewhere in your mind you know that you will never succeed unless the obstacles are overcame. gradually, this passion dies on and you are no longer motivated to do anything. just sit down, collect dust, decompose and blend in with the surroundings. how sad life can be without a passion.

i guessed i have portrayed it in the wrong way and put people off. i cannot help it but to have high expectations on you always. asking too much? nope. just high expectations.

"keep the passion going"

... stay optimistic ...

people around me are feeling depressed. i cannot help it but to feel the same way too. we have expectations and in an ideal case, it is best if we can meet all of them. sometimes, reality just does not allow that. mental block, you are not in luck on that day, carelessness... you name it. but to me, what's most important is to be able to recover from that fall in the shortest possible time. it's pointless to keep thinking why didn't i do this or that before it because i cannot change the end product. remember that time only moves forward? it's normal to have such reaction initially but let it go soon. just let it go and move on with life. hope everyone, including myself will be in high spirit again next week. =D

tough decision. i do not know what's best for me. i asked around, sought for advice and came to this conclusion. i do not know if i have made the right choice yet. time will reveal the answer soon. i know this route will be rocky and steep, but i will perserve on because i have their support. i hate to disappoint myself but i hate it even more to disappoint those who believe and support me along the way. i hate to cry because it is the first sign of me being weak, on the verge of collapsing. it will be painful if i fail again. but i will try harder and harder till i succeed on that day. i never believe in i reap what i sow because it never happens on me. but i still hope that hardwork and effort will pay off on that day.

victory is not determined by the score, but by the players' performance

you just tripped over a small hurdle but you have more wider and taller hurdles to jump over

hang in there

...she's coming back...

how was my 2 days break? nothing unusual nor exciting happened. i went to fang's house to have a jap drama marthon. the 2 of us are crazy over jap drama. i prefer jap to korea. korea dramas are similar to soap opera, you never fail to see the actors or actresses cry. they always evolve around love. cant they think of new concepts to write about? life is NOT all about love. at present, we have not finished a series yet. omg... how lousy right? the leading actor is an eye candy, which is encouraging. he is not gorgeous but he has this pleasant pretty face to admire. =) hahaz...

went to the library recently to borrow some books to enrich myself. aren't you shock??? karen is actually reading?? hahaz... people do change.

i got from a local TV drama. "when one is in the race, one has to constantly improve oneself though one might be in the lead. if not, one will be eliminated from the race" how true can it get? welcome to the reality people. that's how harsh things can get when everyone is competing for the same achievement. sometimes, i feel suffocated from all these competitions. why cannot we be peace loving people for once? why cannot we do things together as one? why must we be obsessed with individuals targets and deadlines to meet and neglect interpersonal relationships? why must we learn to be power hungry? what's all these power struggle for? life is harsh on everyone of us. why am i blogging all these?? argH!!!!

i should not let this dampen my spirit today. i am going to pig out tmr. hahaz... how exciting... i am going to eat lots and lots of ice cream. i miss ice cream!!!!! and a shopping trip with my sis this sunday. she is at taiwan now, on a business trip. i miss her so... it's okay. she is returning to spore tomorrow night. =)

"wait till you turn up"